Sunday, November 28, 2010

feels like crying

hurmmm.woke up this mroning with the pain at my right when the pain going to go tired of it..but this morning it hurts so much feels like cutting off my leg n put it all together in pain..from my butt to the feet.i think its because it is cold today n people who has this cannot stay long in a cool became worse but if it a hot place it will be ok...i experience that already.being bathe with salt with the past few days and i think it helps a bit n thats why i want to go n buy bath salt or normal raw salt, so that i can bathe it with warm water..another thing that relieves my pain is body shop spray . something got to do with foot spray i thing help relieves pain cause it is cool..

Saturday, November 27, 2010

the real me??

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

  1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
  2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
  3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
  4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
  5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Friday, November 26, 2010

love love love

missing this little angel so much.

i want nobody nobody but u
i want nobody nobody but u

missing him so much.all the fun times that we had.all the are my love forever...

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

feeling so lonely

despite i got the chance to soend 1 day at MSU with all my frends it helps me relieve my stress away.but as soon as i got home alone n lone..i feel so sad..thinking about my so desperately want to cure n get well so bad..n i want to learn goto MSU and stop thinking bout the sickness.but whenever im alone that think keeps bugging my mind..being crying all day and everyday...just feeling so lonely n helpless....i want to cure so bad n iwant to be back so sad that i cannot go to class for the first week but ill be going there on the second week by hook or by crook...i miss my frends which entertain me n help me gwt rid of thinking that im sick....i feel so lonely n alone and as if no one caresf or helpless...

Saturday, November 20, 2010

next semester expectation

next semester expectation:

  1. no more internet on weekdays
  2. study and make notes on the topic learnt on the day
  3. eat healthy
  4. no more maggi
  5. eat less junk food
  6. study at least 2 hours a day
  7. clean room always
  8. pray 5 times a day
  9. recite quran every nite and yassin on thursday
  10. where tudung

Thursday, November 11, 2010

a little light shines in the dark

hye there bloggie,

yes theres a light in this dark end, went to HOSPITAL KUALA LUMPUR to meet the specialist. he said that this is a very rare case.. and he dont think it is cancerous yet.cause i didnt show any symptom.he said that he will have a meeting with 2 or 3 more specialist from neurosurgeri, radio and so forth.not so gud in the terms..anyway he said that i should be careful nrest and come quickly to HKL if theres a problem.. adn if i dont show any bad symptom no need for surgery in the nearest time..THANK GOD.but still need to do surgeri.he said its like fluid so the surgeri will be like sucking it out...still to early to do anything cause he said that he need to be careful and study a lot..thats a gud doc.... i went back a little hope in my heart and hope for the best and not the worse..ALLAH is there with me n im sure he will help me....

Friday, November 05, 2010


what a boring day today..doing nothing just lying down... internet.. n eat n cannot sleep..boy i miss sleeping peacefully.. when am i going o get better please im tired of it already n i want it to end..i know its an ujian for me..i accept it but please cant it be gone now????? please ALLAH.... ive learn my lesson....i wont forget u anymore....please get rid of all the bad things inside or outside of me n the sickness that im having.... AMIN!!!!

just got back from kelantan

hye bloggie!!

i just came back from kelantan was one hell of experience on riding a wheelchair in the airport..went there to seek for traditional doctors to get me cure..ikhtiar all they way.... whether it is success or not lets leave it to ALLAH..hope things will get better

Monday, November 01, 2010

hey bloggie!!!

i went to opent my wound today and again there is still a little bit gap..please ALLAH let the gap stop n let my skin comes together so damn bored..using this holidays just 4 resting n curing my disease.. i miss going movies n have fun..would i ever feel that again??? or would i end up in a wheelchair and be and OKU person??? lets pray not.... tommorow i'll be going back to kelantan to cure using the traditional way..hope there will be improvement or cured..and im well enough... and again the same problem pain in my tooot............ sucks really..cant sleep when its bitting me off... got leg cramps all the time.....come on im no football player...

anyway congrates kelatan for so proud of you..

and for my idol AIDIL ZAFUAN get well soon are a strong man

aidil him